The Ups and Downs of Publishing

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As all writers know, drafting an entire book, editing it, moaning over it, fretting over it, and finally publishing it takes forever. When you’re in the weeds, it feels like you will never get out.

And then, one day, it’s all over.

With the click of a finger, the book is published. Gone, out of your hands, off onto its journey into the world and into your readers’ hands.

Sounds lovely, doesn’t it?

And it is. Publishing is very exciting, and it’s something every author dreams of at one point or another. Getting to hold your book in your own hands is so thrilling. (I still have to stare at the print copies sometimes! 😊)

But both times I’ve published (Unknown and Unworthy), there was no dramatic rush of joy. I was terrified. Most recently, with Unworthy, I started fretting almost immediately. Had I forgotten something crucial? Had something gone wrong, and I’d copied and pasted something double?

I felt pretty terrible … and that whole night and into the next day, I kept working myself into a tizzy. I remember sitting on the couch reading, and like a crazy author, I began trying to discover a thousand plot holes, tiny mistakes, and the whole gambit.

Yeah, I have problems. 😊

But after a couple days, the initial panic faded. Then the rest of the post-publishing blues happened.

Maybe it was the combination of increasing schoolwork or the final limp across the finish line of the first edits of book #3, but after I published Unworthy, I had no desire to edit. No desire to write.

It was rough.

Even when you’ve achieved your massive goal, moving on from that is super hard. I wasn’t super invested in the characters still, I don’t think (and they show up in like every other book in the series, anyway – poor people), but I just had no desire to work on anything after laboring over Unworthy for so long.

It was weird not to have a desire to keep pushing for those final edits, to eke a few words out here and there. In general, I consistently enjoy writing, and it’s something I look forward to at the end of the day.

But not then.

So I rested.

Maybe you’re in the same place, where your creativity and drive has vanished into thin air. And that happens for many, many reasons – not just publishing. Maybe your life is super busy, or you’re working through trials, or maybe you’re just struggling with writing for no apparent reason.

And that’s when you just have to let yourself take a break and breathe. It’s just part of the whole process … and as many of you know, it’s a gnarly one. Being an author is hard, hard work. There are all sorts of emotional and mental facets of the deal, and it seems these troubles come with every cycle of the publishing process.

So what do we do?

Breathe. Pray. And trust the Lord to get you to the end – in His strength. 😊

“But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.”

Isaiah 40:31

How do you all approach the times in your life when you don’t feel like writing or editing at all? How have you gotten over the post-publishing blues? I’d love to hear from you!

39 thoughts on “The Ups and Downs of Publishing

    • Thanks for reading, Madi! Aw, well, I hope you can escape the post-publishing blues. 🙂 You might just be onward and upward after you publish! (Or you might need to sleep for about five weeks after all that editing and proofreading. 🙂 )

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  1. Thank you for this post, Vanessa!! I’ve hit low points in my writing where I felt creatively drained and I thought I wouldn’t be able to write again. But, thank you for the reminder that God is the one who renews our strength and gets us through the tough stuff. 🙂

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    • (Apologies in advance for taking so long to reply to your comment, Louise! I’m so sorry!)

      But yes! I totally didn’t expect it to go down like it did the first time I published. There are just so many emotions and ups and downs in the whole deal. (Just in writing in general, I think.)

      And amen, you are so right. How much fretting and anxieties we would avoid if we just rested in Him! 🙂


      • (You’re fine, don’t worry about it all!! 🙂 I feel bad for lagging sometimes too, ah, life is so busy! XD)

        That’s so interesting! I agree! Just in general it’s something I was NOT AWARE OF when I first started writing. XD Like, you could actually cry or laugh while writing, and “hyperventilate” (whatever the calm version of hyperventilation is) during publishing or even letting someone else read it! A great topic to touch on.

        Oh yes! But like the finite short-memoried (is that a word?) humans we are we often forget, don’t we? Praise be, He’s so merciful!! 😀

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      • Oh my word, yes, letting someone else read your writing is its own version of terrifying. That part does get a little better, though … as long as I don’t have to watch the person read. 🙂 Or hear them read it out loud. (That is the absolute worst!) But I agree, there is so much more to writing than I ever though there was!

        And yes, that is perfect description for us. But hallelujah, He is merciful indeed!


      • (there’s no more reply button for me to click 😂) I’m glad to hear it gets better! Although, yes, I HATE hearing my stories read aloud, idk why. XD (Twi loves doing it though whenever we’re together. It’s her form of friendly torture.)


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      • (What is up with the reply button? The little dude is just vanishing these days …) 🙂

        Anyway, yes! It is some sort of torture to hear your writing read aloud. But then again, friends sometime delight in putting us through a few … edifying trials, if those are the right words for it! 🙂


  2. Hi Vanessa! How has your week been?

    True, indeed! I got paranoid with typos just before I published a short story XD
    When I don’t feel like writing, I step away and do other stuff (like a favorite craft) Or just sit outside and jot random ideas down to clear my head.

    Thank you for such an encouraging and relatable post; it really blessed my day! 🙂

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    • Hey! I’m doing pretty well, thank you for asking! How has your week been?

      And I love that you can find other creative outlets when you’re a bit burnt out with writing. I’ve tried to do things like that, but I think all my creative juices are just drained dry at that point, hahaha! 🙂

      Aww, I’m so thankful the Lord used it! Thank you for reading, girl! 🙂

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      • Aww, you’re welcome! And thank you for asking too! I’ve been doing well. Been working on some research for an article project.

        Lol. What do you like to do to recharge your creativity, then?

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      • Ooh, research! (That could definitely be fun – or difficult. :)) Is the article for your blog or school?

        That’s something I’ve been trying to discover, hahaha, so good question! Sometimes playing around on the piano helps, but since I do music a lot throughout the day, that can be a drain on my creativity, too. This sounds lame, but sleep helps. 🙂 Sometimes I just need to wait a day before I go back to tackling edits or writing. 🙂


      • Sometimes, it is. And then sometimes it’s overwhelming XD. Actually, the research is for an article contest on Kingdom Pen (have you ever heard of them? They’re a Christian writer site.)

        Never underestimate the power of sleep! Seriously, if it’s a slow day and I’m exhuasted, a power nap really helps. 🙂

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      • I agree completely about research! And yes, I’ve heard of them, but I’m not sure I’ve ever checked that website out. I know you’ll do great with the article! 🙂

        Yes, sleep is such a gift from God! 🙂

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  3. Ahhhh, yes, I already felt (Feel, probably, although I’m sure it’ll wane over time 😂) terrified after I got the results of Grace’s anthology…LOL!! *silent screaming in the background followed by clearing of throat and then more screaming into my blanket*

    Surprisingly enough, there’s only been at least one definite time I didn’t want to write, and that was because I was depressed at the time. (That sounds miserable. 😂) But for the most part, I do want to write unless I’m just lazy and/or I have absolutely no time (and I absolutely DO have time…and other stories to revisit if I wanted to 😂) and/or got distracted with YouTube in the past. *hisses at YouTube*

    But thank you for this post! I definitely needed it…and I’m glad I’m not the only one who freaked out about a situation such as this…🤣🤣

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    • Oh no, please don’t scream – but the post-publishing/post-submitting/post-winning blues are a thing! (But also massive congratulations!! I was so excited when I saw your name on the list. 🙂 I can’t wait to read your story. And now I get to rain you with pounds and pounds of confetti and chocolate and sprinkles!)

      Aw, hugs … But it is really hard to write when you have other hard things going on in your life. And I feel you … sometimes I just start spending the time I do have on stuff that’s just a distraction and not really important. *will hiss at YouTube with you* 🙂

      And you’re so welcome! I’m so thankful it encouraged you. And no, you’re absolutely not the only author who freaks out on occasion. 😉


      • I screamed when I saw the results and then screamed later that night silently to myself and then silent-screamed throughout yesterday about the story…LOL!! Then I made myself read it because, um, because. XD LOL, ooh, yay, thanks for the chocolate and sprinkles and confetti! (Not…all at once though. I doubt confetti is edible…)

        I shall accept the hugs because everybody needs twelve hugs a day and I’m deprived XD (and thank you)! Right?? *sigh* Doesn’t help either when you get distracted with new instrumental hymns on YouTube for the next thirty minutes…*cough* And yes, hissing at YouTube does need an accomplice. XD

        LOL, I’m glad!! 😀

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      • Well, it’s definitely an accomplishment worthy of much screaming. And of course, you must read over the masterpiece! (I can’t wait to read it, girl!) And what if I have edible confetti, though?? 😉

        Yes, all the hugs! We shall hiss at YouTube together, though instrumental hymns sounds lovelyyyy …


  4. Wow, that’s so interesting! It’s the opposite of how I would think you’d feel after publishing, but I haven’t yet experienced something as big as publishing a book! 😉 I’d probably be the same way! Oof, that must be such a scary feeling, worrying you missed something such as a plot hole in the book. I hope I’ll remember that when it happens to me: breathe, pray, and trust in God!

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    • I know, right? You’d think that you’d have some dramatic moment of joy, but I guess it’s a little anticlimactic, after all, since all of the work takes so long. 🙂 But you might be different – it’s so interesting how we all react. 🙂 And amen, that’s so important to just trust the Lord!

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  5. (Not sure where the reply button to your other response has gone, but I’ll just respond here lol.)

    oahgpah goi ghapg a I was screaming over the fact that I thought the story was cringy.
    Then I told myself that it must’ve have been because Grace liked it.
    Then I still found reasons to dislike the story.
    Then I read it and freaked out throughout the entire thing but did find one part that I still find enjoyable.
    Then finally, I liked the story. XD

    Ooh, prithee, what is this…edible confetti that you speak of? *eyes* Man, I really shouldn’t be having any more sugar or unhealthy food than I’ve been having this past week…LOL!!

    Yes to the hugs and YES to the instrumental hymns on YouTube!! *grabs earbuds* We shall fangirl together over…instrumental hymns…LOL!!

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    • Does the reply button disappear when we chatter so much we out-chatter the button? 🙂 We have outdone WordPress! 😉

      Hahaha, that sounds like an author right there. I definitely can kind of cringe over some of my past writing (even the published stuff). Yet I’m sure your story is not cringy in the least. It has to be amazing if it’s in that anthology! 🙂

      Yes, edible confetti …. maybe it’s made of some sort of dried fruit? So it’s sort of healthy?

      Wow, that sounds amazing. Hugs and instrumental hymns. Yup, sign me up! 🙂


      • LOL, I’ve noticed it disappears after the fourth message (so after you respond on this one)…Ig we must’ve outdone the system XD.

        Oh, okay, good, I’m the farthest person from normal…LOL!! And aw, thank you! XDXD Sameeeee!! Especially the first drafts…*aYyY, the pain*

        Ooh, dried fruit!! Mango?? 😀

        Thou hast officially been signed up for this service…LOL!


  6. Thank you so much, Vanessa. I really needed this today. Your writing and publishing is very encouraging to me, and so is the fact that you know to let yourself take a break when your mind and body are telling you too. There’s absolutely no shame in that – in fact, it’s inspiring! I’ll be praying you get some good rest.
    I personally have struggled with adrenal fatigue over the past year, and I’m definitely still in that process of learning to accept that I just can’t do as much as I used to, or as much as I still want to. Finding that balance between productivity and rest is difficult, but the Lord provides. 🙂

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    • Aw, I’m so thankful the Lord used it to bless you, Bella! And thank you so much for your prayers. It’s so hard to stop sometimes even when you mind and body need that rest.

      And I’ll be praying for you, too! *hugs* That sounds really difficult. It’s very hard when dealing with health issues and still needing (and wanting) to get work done. And amen, He does provide, and in the end, He is our perfect rest. (Definitely something I need to remember more than I do …)

      Thank you so much for reading and commenting. 🙂

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